Hope is a Dangerous Thing

There's different kinds of hope.

There's the kind that doesn't matter much, like hoping for sunshine the next day instead of rain, and there's the kind that seems to be the most important thing in the world. I have a promblem with the second kind.

Sometimes hope gets the best of me.
You see, when I hope, and that hope gets crushed, I become a wreck. It's happened before, and I know it will happen again. Except for some reason I just can't stop it. No matter how much I tell myself no, I will always keeping hoping.
(I keep hoping for him, but that's beside the point--You see? I'm just setting myself up for disappointment. Again. I seem to be fairly excellent at that.)

Day 29: I Would Like To Think So...

I would like to think I know what I want in life.
Except I don't.
At least nothing is set in stone, nothing is absolutely positively something I want so much I would do anything for it.
I don't know where I want to go to college. I don't know what I want my career to be. I don't know where I want to live. I don't know what I want my future to be like.
All I know  is this....
The only thing I know I for sure want is to 
F a l l  I n  L o v e.

Day 27: I'd Like to Be There

That place between sleep and reality,

where you aren't really dreaming, yet you are at the same time.

It's that time of night where you feel like you are drifting,

& you are.

Drifting on the edge of consciousness,

waiting for sleep to overtake you.

It's times like this when you dream up crazy ideas,

& things you wish could-or would-happen.

It's the greatest time of night.

Everything happens perfectly in your mind,

& for once you are at peace.

Everything is perfect there.

That's why it's my favorite place.



Day 20: The Shortest Month of the Year

This month:

I had the stomach flu.

I received a compliment that wasn't really a compliment.

A video project was turned in.

He hung out at my house for a few days in a row.

I went bowling.

Even though I am terrible at it.

I had a pillow fight.

He drove me home a few times.

I laughed a lot.

I sang songs.

I ate jellybeans.

I learned new things, and had a good time.

This month had its ups & downs, but what month doesn't?